Cast Away?

You seemed to have pushed me,
To the corner-most part of your heart
Your Grace does not reach me; why?

My weak self seems vanishing away,
Out of the old meditation hall
Your eyes does not meet mine; why?

Distance to Arunachala seems far,
A hundred thousand miles away
Your Magnet does not attract me; why?

My thirst for the Self seems dried up,
Like lakes during severe famine
You allow me to starve; why?

Your Love for me seems unsteady,
Like the waves of a fiery ocean
You allow me to drown; why?

I am driven to death violently,
By the demons of indriya vasanas
You have cast me away; why?, why?